I did mention that I'm nuts, right? Three or four years ago, I had a teensy lil breakdown, and ended up agoraphobic as a result. I couldn't get halfway across my backyard without having a panic attack. It sucked. Tons. I'm doing better now-still not good with crowds, but I can manage going to the store and on outings with my family. If it gets too crowded, I get twitchy, and my darling husband knows to get me out before I start foaming at the mouth.
Fall and Winter are always tough on me. I always end up in a downswing around this time of year. At least we can recognize it for what it is and we can deal. My husband knows that I'm not avoiding him; I'm just retreating into myself a bit. I can control myself better because I know what is causing it.
We are gamers. I've mentioned that, no? He has gone back to playing WoW now that Cataclysm is about to be released (Dec. 7th, my MMO widows!). He wants me to play with him, and I want to play with him. However, I get in, see lots of people running around, and promptly log out because I don't feel like dealing with people. In a game.
This bodes well for the rest of the season. Poor husband.
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